Wednesday, October 28, 2009
She said on the first night "We are addicted to our tension" and I thought: sure lots of people, but not me, I'm pretty flexible and get massages, I have an active job and I don't sit in front of the computer a lot. I thought of people with office jobs and long commutes, yeah it's fair to say that lots of people are addicted to their tension.
Oh wait - she meant beyond the physical body...
As she kept talking I realized that I am quite addicted to tension in my life.
Pay the bill at the last minute? tension
Start studying the night before the exam? tension
Minimally planned travel? tension
Leave thing unsaid in a relationship? tension
I may not have much muscle tension, but I have tons of emotional tension.
Tension between the known and the unknown, between desires and fears.
Not all bad of course; some tension in life is what keeps it exciting and as a lover of adventure, I cherish that.
What Seane's workshop made me realize though, is that I have to own that tension because much of it I choose for myself, and if I realize that it's not serving me, I can choose to let go of it.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
It's been really nice to settle into Kripalu.
Beginning March of this year, I've packed and unpacked my bags a ridiculous number of times:
Starting with packing up all my stuff in Chiang Mai, then staying in about 15 different places while traveling Bali, Malaysia & Southern Thailand, then living out of my suitcase back in Chiang Mai for a few weeks, lugging everything back to Florida, visiting Gainesville, packing for Canada while unsure whether I would be following that with a stay at Kripalu, visiting Padg in Toronto, going to Guelph, up to Muskoka, right back to Guelph again, a couple trips to Ottawa... in sum, I haven't felt able to unpack literally or metahporically for a while.
Almost immediately upon arriving at Kripalu though, I felt at home. I unpacked all my possessions the first night, and have since been unpacking emotionally.
I had planned to stay at Kripalu for the minimum 4 months, but have since decided to stay for at least another 4 (till May). The program here is one of deep self-inquiry and personal growth and in order to really "unpack" some of the issues I'd like to delve into, I need to know I'll be here for a while.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
To give you an idea of the kind of place Kripalu is, let me describe the "All Staff Meeting" I attended yesterday:
As I mentioned before, Kripalu is kind of like a giant beached yogic cruise ship, and so a meeting with all the staff involved around 200 people. From kitchen, to registration, to front desk, to marketing, household, finance, etc... it's technically a non-profit, but the meeting felt quite corporate as the CEO displayed a powerpoint with a financial slide showing revenues of $27 million and "guest nights" of almost 90,000.
What made it Kripalu though was that all this started with a centering meditation and an "OM"